I painted your eyes
To hide what you left
You're telling lies
I smell it on your breath
And you're desperate for me
Desperate for anything
To stop up the blood
Desperate with need
But I ate up your lies
I threw myself on the floor
I paid you off
And boarded up the door
To keep you here
To keep you alone
When we go out
I just want to be home
And when we're home
You just feel so alone
I'm dying of thirst
And my mouth is a sponge
I'm debating what's worse
To stay or to run
I can drown here with you
Beautiful as you are
I'd drown here with you
Beautiful and scarred
But I hold onto these feelings
All the hate and revulsion
Your body is beautiful but you are embarrassing
You run when I'm sick
And turn tricks in the hallway
All your friends are pricks
And they've taken you the wrong ways
I don't need your rejection
I need promises and follow through
I don't need your corrections
I need a sword to run you through
But don't talk about love
When you haven't really earned it
Don't shiver and bitch
Because you broke your own spirit
I want you to know I couldn't dodge all your bullets
So instead I just pretend they didn't hit me
I spend my nights swallowing blood
To poison my kidneys
Denying you love is like admitting you killed me
And saying you're sorry just means you're unhappy
We breathe the same air
Don't use that against me