A Poem Unheard

We looked so fine
Your redhead delicate hands
Waved me to you
Spent paychecks on me
Two hour drive just to see
Time and distance spanned
Even though you'd only kissed a few
We used to lay around
Holding each other
But not holding down
Why did we promise more than we could do?
Why am I broken up
And can't be fixed for you?
It's so easy to blame
Every eyeline to the pain
As I stare at gaps in time
There are things we'll never do
I used to drive the hearse in my dreams
Put a period after you and me
Woke up and saw through someone else's eyes
Were these five years really true?
Those concerned people
Kisses long but lethal
I only turned tricks before you
And new bomb makers
Unlicensed undertakers
I was so sick and through
Words laid in rhyme
Pretending to keep time
I gave up bricks for you
We used to watch movies all night long
And you'd wake before me, still in my arms
Forgive me now and I forgive you
Bend to me now like I was bent on you
I offered to make an offer and you still refuse
I'm ruined now, I'm so deep in debt
To you and others I haven't met
Like all suckers, I made some dumb bets
But I won't let this end as a regret
I'm reaching for those delicate hands
And selling off the beach's sands
I was a boy, you made me a man
It took seven years to get to second chance
And I hope there are no secrets left
A poem unheard just dies a quiet death